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Following my Heart

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I :heart: Bruce Campbell [28 Aug 2005|07:23pm]

[ mood | ecstatic ]

It is now official. I own the coolest shirt of all time.

On the front it says:
"I :heart: boomsticks"

On the back:
"Give me some sugar, baby"

If you understand why this is the coolest shirt of all time, you rock my world.

If not you need to come over to my place for my my next movie fest.

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Carissa's thought of the day: the mystery of service [27 Aug 2005|02:53am]

[ mood | somber ]

[ music | Sophie Zelmani - Always You ]

Sometimes I wonder why certain people enter or leave our lives at certain times. It seems that when we need someone the most, there is always someone there to pick up the pieces or just offer a shoulder to cry on.

So could it also mean that when someone else obviously needs us, it is our duty as human beings to offer back ourselves? Even if we feel there surely must be people better equiped to handle the situation? Who knows what power brings people together, but it is my wish to always be there for the people that I feel I can help in life. No matter how long I've know them or how much we have in common or any other pointless detail.

My father this week gave me a look that crushed me... a look of wasted potential. He seems to believe that I have so much to offer in this world. And that I am squandering it by not persuing a career and going to college, etc, etc.

But what of my goals in life? They are not for careers or power or wealth, but just to fill myself with a love that overpowers those around me and consoles them. I wish only to touch those that I meet in this world and leave a personal mark upon each one. If I can help any person through a difficult time, or soften someone or help them find themselves, then my goals in life are complete.

I tackle life with this motto: sometimes in life, despite whether or not we want to help or care to help, we know we can help. And so I do.

This is my gift to the world, my comfort: I shall not judge (to the best of my ability), but only offer back pure love and forgiveness to those who come to me in need of it. For we all make mistakes and all we wish is for someone to forgive us for them. I am not perfect. I am not better than anyone else. And sometimes just knowing that and admiting that to another makes all the difference in the world.

But alas this has turned into a ramble. And really all I have to say is that once again, my heart has told me what is right. And I didn't even have to ask. Of course, no matter what, I'll be here. Because it's who I am and I cannot deny myself that. No matter how much I want to, or how much I try.

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More Stupid BlogThings [24 Jul 2005|02:49pm]

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Part Freaky Kisser

When you kiss, you want to experience something new
A new technique, a new partner, a new piercing...
And your own personal kissing style is very unpredictable
There's no saying where your tongue or hands will go
Part Passionate Kisser

For you, kissing is about all about following your urges
If someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of story
You can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kisses
A total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

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STRIPING FUN!!!! [21 Jul 2005|04:47pm]

Ok, so Saturday night me and my girls took a night out together at the strip club and it was way too fucking fun for words. I bought Jenny a lap dance for her birthday just in time to meet up with some friends of mine (Dan and Kiel). Kiel enjoyed the show so much he bought me a lap dance of my own. It was a blast.

I liked the girl who gave Jenny a dance way better. She was dancing to Cake later and gave me quite a ride for the $2 I gave her for a tip. Damn, next time, I'm so getting her.

God, before that though, we were down in the basement with two for ones and Jenny started talking to this guy. Suddenly he got creepy. So I gave the performance of a year as her jealous girlfriend and scared the boy away.... not before he spent a lot of time trying to talk me into having a 3 way though.... I think I played the part of a raging bull dyke well though.

I wonder if I should be afraid of the fact that I pulled off this act so well....... I mean, I actually said "I hate the cock" and apparently made it sound believable!!! Seriously, how wtf is that?!!!! Though I must admit, hanging all over Jenny was not such a hard task... I love that girl!!!

All in all, damned good times tonight. Damned good times..... I think I need to start bringing Jenny there more often... esp. if Kiel will come and buy me more lap dances!!!

Hahahahaha! OOPS!! Sorry, I just copy/pasted from myspace, I forgot I didn't include that there.

The best part of the story:
About 10 min after I scared the guy that was hitting on Jenny away, Lindz showed up and I shouted out to her "Hey! Lindz, you just missed my performance of a lifetime as a dyke to scare some guy off Jenny!" And then I look over and the guy had moved two seats down from me and heard what I said!! He shot me the dirtiest look I've ever seen. Of course, it just made me laugh!

I mean, seriously, how many times must you tell a guy that you're not interested before he takes a hint!!

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The Best Weekend Ever!!! [04 Jul 2005|01:30pm]

[ mood | thankful ]

[ music | Ciara - 1 2 Step Feat. Missy Elliott ]

Thank Erik for this.

List 5 things you enjoy, even when no one is around you. What lowers your stress/blood pressure/anxiety level? Post it to your journal... And then tag 3 friends and ask them to post it to theirs.

1. Dancing
2. Watching movies
3. Writing
4. Listening to music on my computer
5. Masterbating (oops, did I put that?!)

You have been tagged:
Lindz
my fave cub, yes that's you Steve
Lee!! (cause you don't update nearly enough)

( BEST WEEKEND EVER!!!! )

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Par-teh! [28 Jun 2005|11:36pm]

[ mood | excited ]

[ music | The White Stripes - My Doorbell ]

What: Party

When: Wed. Night 11 pm

Where: My Apartment: 1422 32nd St SW Apt 105

Directions: Take 13th Ave to 32nd St (right by Scheel's)
Take 32nd st South (towards the Post Office)
My building is the very last one before the road construction starts.
Park ANYWHERE on the street
Then walk your ass into my ghettofabulous apartment: #105

Why: Cause I feel like it, foo!

Drinks: You can bring your own stuff too, but I have the following thigns to work with:
Morgan, SoCo, Absolut, Malibou Mango, Pinnapple Juice, Sorbet (to put in blender with Malibou and Pinnapple and ice), Coke, Diet Coke, Ginger Ale, Apple Kiwi Strawberry Juice, Orange Juice (with high pulp), Koolaid and Water

( +extra fun if we do shots...... )

But please feel free to supply your own stuff as well.COME PLEASE IT WILL BE FUN TIMES!!!

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:( [08 Jun 2005|05:09pm]

[ mood | depressed ]

my mom has colon cancer.

fuck the rest of the world.

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quiz whore!!! (bored at work) [05 Jun 2005|06:50pm]

( When I get bored, you guys have to see my quiz results )

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Me? A Geek? Maybe just a little...... [12 May 2005|11:30am]

[ mood | geeky ]

[ music | System Of A Down - Shimmy ]

OK, so Angie found this geek hierarchy the other night and I just thought I'd post it and ask you all where you are on it.

The Geek Hierarchy

I'll list the spots I fell into:
Fantasy Literature Fan
Ren Faire Folk (though only one weekend a year... who's coming with me this year?!)
Comic Book Fan (though only a bit)
Video Gamer
Roleplaying Gamer (and no, I have yet to LARP, I'm not THAT big of a loser)

and that is all. I didn't think it was SOOOO bad.

I do want to know where the rest of you fit though! Please, post now!

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GAY MOVIE NIGHT! [09 May 2005|11:18am]

[ mood | impulsive ]

[ music | Cabaret - Maybe This Time ]

( Hot Gay Films with a sexy gay man!!! )

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Thank You Angie [07 May 2005|11:02am]

[ mood | groggy ]

[ music | Mindless Self Indulgence - Clarissa ]

Last night Angie called me hot, which was nice to hear from somone NOT attracted to me. After 3 years of verbal abuse my self confidence is shot. I mean, it's coming back, but waaaaaaaay to damn slowly. I have good days and bad. So thank you Angie (and Lindz who agreed with her) for helping rebuild me back up.

Right now I'm at a place where I'm just being myself and I don't really care what other people think, which is better, but I still don't feel like others could think I'm cool/hot/etc. So it's alway nice to hear such things. I even feel lame writing this out. Damn me and my now self concious self. I hope this is something I grow out of.

And erik sent me the most halarious song EVER last night, making fun of the show that's been the bane of my existenace since it started: Clarissa Explains it all. I shall now post the lyrics for your amuesment:

( Mindless Self Indulgence - Clarissa )

Thanks Again to EVERYONE who's helped build me back up after 3 years of being torn down. I think this battle with myself will be even harder than my battle with Brad for my freedom, but I know one day I'll get my confidence back.

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tiaras, faux lashes and drag queens oh my!! [03 May 2005|04:36pm]

[ mood | jubilant ]

[ music | Cabaret ]

So, last night I went to a Drag Queen show with Stevo. WAY TOO MUCH FUN!!! Why haven't I been going to those more frequently?! I don't know, but I must start going more often. I took some damned cute pics of myself with my tiara and faux eye lashes.

my fave

OMG TONGUE!

I reunited with Liz, an old friend. We're going to go to the mall maybe tonight to shop and look at boys... i mean... just to shop.... Liz also knows how to skate some. So I've found another person to go skating with.

Today was my first day on the phones and I'm really enjoying it. All I have to do is sit around and be nice all day. I can do that! I'm good at being nice. *nods*

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the rest of the hair pics. [27 Apr 2005|04:28pm]

[ mood | ecstatic ]

[ music | Garbage - #1 Crush ]

Another look at it from the front

A look at it from the back:

from the side:

From the other side (this one I took myself, which was weird to do):

I accidently put the wrong setting on my camera, but it looked so cute, I had to post this one:

And me in pigtails!!! These are by far the thing that looks cuter the most in person:

Enjoy (I swear, I'll put up pics of Mr. G's sometime soon... this is just more exciting for now.) :gonk: < for my gaians

Compliments of the day:
Lindz: "You're an inspiration!" (I try to do what I want when I want it and encourage others to do so as well, so this was an amazing one, thank you Lindz)
Annie (ThisWasNeverMyExit):
[08:27:19] [Rain]: Oh god! That must look great! You ish fashion master.
[08:27:30] Carissa: hahaha I don't know about that
[08:27:46] Carissa: most people say I have a style all of my own......
[08:28:09] [Rain]: Yes you do. And that's why (I think) most people relate to you as their fashion leader.
[08:28:12] [Rain]: (i think)
[08:28:49] Carissa: haha awesome
[08:28:56] Carissa: I never really thought of myself as a fashion leader
[08:29:10] [Rain]: haha. To me, you seem like it.

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OMG WHAT DID I DO? [27 Apr 2005|12:43am]

I'm too damned tired to post them all, but here's a teaser pic for you all:

OMG HOW CUTE AM I!?!?!? FOR REAL?!!?

Tomorrow night: more hair pics? and the dancing pics from last night. For real, my life is toooooooo insane right now for words.

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Horror films rock my world [24 Apr 2005|01:03pm]

[ mood | nostalgic ]

[ music | Garbage - Sleep Together ]

( LOTS OF SIN FACTOR PHOTOS!!!! )

I'm not cutting this, cause I want to make sure people see it. This is for people who don't read Lindz's journal; it's a convo we had there that made me laugh:

Lindz Live Journal (paraphrased): BORED AT WORK! Ask me questions for something to do!!
Carissa: How damn sexy is my lj?
Lindz: Quite! It's a good reflection of you.
Carissa: Lindz, do you think I'm sexy?!
Lindz: Do pornos contain nudity?

That was so awesome Lindz, made my day, thank you.

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VEGEMITE!!! [22 Apr 2005|07:16pm]

( Fuck Talk with Lee (and some special sauces) )

Because I know you wouldn't expect less from me. And becuase it's just so much fun to make you all wonder.

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[21 Apr 2005|06:11pm]

[ mood | calm ]

[ music | Harry Connick Jr. - Let's Call the Whole Thing Off ]

( Sex with Lindz; Lunch with my mom )

Cause Lindz, I know you love it!!

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